...i tried and tried to forgive you

...and its all because you lied! RESENTMENT..a beautiful song by Beyonce Knowles-Carter that was written during the making of Dreamgirls. I don't know if anyone else sees the irony between dream girls having resentment for those people in their lives that they felt were important enough to be the girl of that persons dream. We all search and some have found that person of our dreams but others are living a fairytale life without a leading actor for the knight and shining armor part. Some of us have THOUGHT we found that person or persons but ended up short. So this brings me back to... FORGIVENESS! I think we hold people to such a high pedestal that when they do disappoint us we are so heart broken. So i got to thinking (i think from time to time).. what if God judged us how we judge each other. Imagine if after ONE screw up He would completely be threw with us.Although i don't believe i have ever done anything that bad to a person where they don't want to even know if i exist anymore...i have lost friends over never being able to forgive. I still don't know where to start at to begin to forgive a person but we all make mistakes and some things i feel should never happen but who am i to judge someone especially if i haven't even tried to forgive them? I want to set my heart free..and escape this burden i hang over peoples heads because i feel that they owe me an apology (even tho it is common courtesy) because it will allow me to fully control my life. I don't know anyone who has a grudge against me because of something i did wrong...but i would love to hear what they have to say about why they think im such a monster. [signed Peyton Blake..on a road to forgiveness]