..you are beautiful in every single way

WELL

I recently cut my hair off and i recieved many compliments from the ladies but alot of negative thoughts from the fellas and i dont know why! Natural hair is so beautiful and i think guys dont want to accept it because its misunderstood. I didnt cut my hair off to scream "im black and im proud" although i am, i did it to have healthy hair and ultimately a healthier me! I havent stepped foot on my college campus yet which will be the ultimate test that will prove if i embrace myself for who i am or will fall to shambles because my society doesnt accept me and my new look. although im sure that wont be the case. The first day i cut my hair and put a pic on twitter [@uncut_comments] and waited for the response. i got messages askin why did i cut it off and what was wrong with me. I laughed. it tickled me! I felt like some of my girlfriends didnt care for it but they didnt want to hurt my feelings lol...but it jus takes time getting use to. I feel more beautiful than i did before and i wanted to make a statement. To who..i dont kno but my hair doesnt make me pretty..neither does the MAC i choose to wear or not. I embrace my wide nose, my big lips, my bright brown eyes and my little afro.

..underneath it all

...so as this facebook/twitter [@Uncut_Comments] questions game opened my eyes just alittle to how my peers feel abt me. i didnt recieve any bad comments for the most part but the ones i did think about were the ones like "your confidence is unmatched," and "i thought you were tough," and "youre goin to make a good wife one day." These all, well besides the being tough one, lol i made my favorite but it got my brain juices flowing. When i read the tweet about being tough, i thought it meant not bein nice, not cordial, or one with a nasty attitude but the tweeter explained to me that it meant one who doesnt have time for the BS so i agreed. So i recently got upset with a guy i have a slight crush on because i thought i was going to see him before this Christmas break..the week had gone by and i had not seen him. before the week had started i sent him a nice PSA stating that if i didnt see him i wudnt speak to him again. I am a woman of my word and if i say something i mean it. i sent a txt msg to the gentleman and his response is "we both were busy, are you really going to act like i didnt have to work and you didnt have work to do." However i felt like he nvr gave me the option to see him. i asked what he was din and he always had something to do so when that occurs i usually just back off and dont say anything because when i get upset i tend to jus say WHATEVER comes to mind without thinkn about the way the other person feels. So i jus leave it alone cuz he says we will discuss it later. The next day he asks if i get  home safely and i say i do and thank him for askin. I tell him i dont let things go and i do hold grudges especially when i feel i wasnt wrong. Log story short..he told me to let him know when i was going to be "nice" again. I say all that to say this..Was that too tough? I feel if someone doesnt make time for another its because they didnt want to make time. And if its not that kinda person why not just say so. i am starting to think maybe i am too tough but i really dont like bein bs'd so if i am alittle more stern i feel like i wud have a lesser chance of being lied to or whatever. although i kno who i am and dont need anyones validation is bein too strong somethin plaguing me and our community which ultimately makes our men date other men or outside their race? [signed Peyton Blake, still in search]

..Fall for your type

Well guys this is my first time EVER doing something like this..HA! even though I tell my followers my thoughts all the time via twitter [@Uncut_Comments] but im watching this coon video countdown formally known as 106 and Park...and Jamie Foxx and Drake have previewed their video for "Fall for your type" and it has my mind thinkn about the men i have fallen for and the men i am interested in now. The guys i was interested in before didnt have anything in common so when im asked "what's my type" idk what to say! What really is a type?! I dont discriminate against the BLACK MAN when it comes to the physical because they are all beautiful in their own right! BUT..characteristics I feel break deals for me start with smoking! I refuse to be in a relationship with someone who smokes! I dont care if you smoke cigarettes, blacks, or maraijuana..i no longer can find you attractive. even tho their are guys i know that i would consider a relationship with that do smoke, i feel that eventually that would be the reason we broke up because its jus GROSS! So with that said..smoking kicks you out the running! NEXT..i HATE that men can demand for women to be wholesome and not be wholesome themselves! How dare you tell a woman she isnt acceptable for you because her body count number is high yet you have more bodies than you have fingers, toes, eyes, ears, and  lips! And when i tell my friends that i want a man with a body count less than he has fingers, im told i will be single for the rest of my life! I wont write a guy off because of his number HOWEVER it will be a factor. Lastly..i need him to have a relationship wit the Big G O dizzle! I love my religion and will defend what i believe..and if you dont attend the Mosque, the Church, the Hall..than i have to question your love for the Creator of all things! I dont think i ask for much..and DO NOT get me started on a man without a degree or in pursuit of one! Alot of my friends already kno what im about to say..but IF a man doesnt have a degree that is interested in finding out what im about he must have 3 letters after his name NBA, NFL, or CEO! You went to the league before you could get your degree..or inherited the family business is the only reason why you dont have a degree! and im sure alot of the men reading this are probably calling me a gold digger..HELL..i'd rather be a gold digger than a ditch digger! And with all this being said..what really is my type? [signed Payton Blake..still in search]